February 2012
5 posts
Off to sleep..
cause when you’re sleeping, it’s the only thing that gets you away from the world/your thoughts for a little while.. :)
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I just want you close to me
Close enough to hear the beat of your heart
My hands against your skin
The warmth of our bodies intertwined
A part of me is incomplete from the distance
When you are within reach I am whole again
Anxiety doesn’t overwhelm, nor does sadness
There is happiness that exists in your presence
I just want you close
close to me
Forgiveness
If I have ever hurt you, knowingly or unknowingly, I ask for your forgiveness. If you have ever hurt me, knowingly or unknowingly, I forgive you.
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What it means to live
Learn from your mistakes.. do not repeat them
Let go of what prevents you from growing
You must love/respect yourself before you can expect anyone to do the same
Always trust your instincts
Follow your heart
Do not be afraid to take risks
Cherish each moment
This is what it means to live
January 2012
21 posts
Are you really here or am I dreaming I can’t tell dreams from truth For it’s been so long since I have seen you I can hardly remember your face anymore When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs If you want me satisfy me If you want me satisfy me Are you really sure that you believe me When others say I...
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Days like this
When I have absolutely no appetite, that’s my way of knowing when depression has sunk in the greatest..
I had to force myself to eat this morning. I never thought I’d be back to this point.
Describing exactly how it feels to someone whom has never experienced the sensation of ‘your brain telling you to eat but not finding food appetizing’ is difficult.
I will mention...
“In the end
these things matter most:
How well did you love?
How fully did you...”
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Hello everyone
Just wanted to say that I hope you all are doing well
I’m currently in my last semester of college, so I haven’t had time to invest in writing here
Besides.. everything has been fairly good here lately.. I’m also attempting to get that short film started..
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Book recommendation
The greatest book I ever read on depression was:
‘Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness’ by William Styron
I bought it last year after it was on a list that my psychiatrist gave me of book recommendations
Another one that I’m currently considering buying is ‘I Hate You - Don’t Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality’.. but I probably will go to my...
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Inspired
The usual thoughts that race around in my mind late at night actually managed to be something productive, as I’ve come up with a concept for a new visual short film.
I don’t want to give away too much.. but I will say that I’m going to take my time with it. It’s more difficult with film to get the ideas transpired from your head than it is with a photograph.
The key focus...
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“He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.”
– Elbert Hubbard (via myquotelibrary)
carpeyourdiem asked: that's a very beautiful song
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Hurt | Johnny Cash
I hurt myself today To see...
To everyone who has dealt with suicidal thoughts...
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Happy New Year, everyone.
I hope this is a great year for you all.
Always be strong.. even when the going gets tough.
- A
December 2011
26 posts
“Never love anyone who treats you like you’re ordinary.”
– Oscar Wilde (via katelizabeth)
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When you were young
You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy To to save you from your old ways You play forgiveness Watch it now- here he comes He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus But he talks like a gentlemen Like you imagined when you were young Can we climb this mountain I don’t know Higher now than ever before I know we can make it if we take it slow ...
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Skype/AIM
Was considering making accounts for both if anyone was interested in talking?
A support system always helps..
A Swan Song | Black Swan (OS)
Together
but still apart
I am yearning to feel complete
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4 am
Wide awake.
I do admit though, my insomnia had been doing well as of late.
Spoke too fast I guess.
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Dreams
Mine have always been extremely vivid since I was a child, which can be a wonderful thing, but also frightening depending on what the dream is about.
Last night.. was.. very scary.
I can’t recall all of it, what stands out the most is that I was murdering people. I do know that they were people whom apparently were planning to do harm to me or those who I am close to. It was beyond...
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Weed
Isn’t it weird that I smoked it last night for the first time since I’ve been on this medication (10 months).. and it made me feel more relaxed than anything?
Just find it interesting.. that’s all.
I promise to write something important next time.
I hope you all had a jolly Christmas. :)
“Perhaps some day I’ll crawl back home, beaten, defeated. But not as long as I...”
– Sylvia Plath
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And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears Get over your hill and see what you find there
Well I’m scared of what’s behind and what’s before
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Absence
It makes the heart grow fonder, or so they say
I can’t help but feel like this is all beginning to self destruct
It comes to an end.. two people left with broken hearts.. left to pick up the pieces that remain of a love strained
This is why I made a vow, to never let myself be vulnerable to that emotion like I once was
I fear it.. that L word that creates both tragedy and beauty amongst...
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On a side note
I’ll be getting back to blogging here a lot more frequently, I’ve found that since I’m not going to therapy, writing has helped me greatly in terms of expressing myself. I don’t actually talk to anyone about my issues, as I believe I sound like a broken record..
The support I’ve received since starting this blog on Tumblr has been immense. I can’t even begin to...
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I look at old photographs
that make me wonder what happened to this girl that I used to know
who was so full of optimism, always inspired by creativity, whom believed in love..
unfortunately..she’s been in repair for a very long time now and has been working on getting better
we all know that the struggle is difficult, but in reality, the healing itself is perhaps the greatest battle of all
you realize...