Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can’t tell dreams from truth
For it’s been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs
If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me
Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
When you know I really tried
To be a better one to satisfy you for you’re everything to me
And I’ll do what you ask me
If you let me be free
If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me
Days like this
When I have absolutely no appetite, that’s my way of knowing when depression has sunk in the greatest..
I had to force myself to eat this morning. I never thought I’d be back to this point.
Describing exactly how it feels to someone whom has never experienced the sensation of ‘your brain telling you to eat but not finding food appetizing’ is difficult.
I will mention that not craving food in the case of depression is not intentional.
I have always loved food.. so when I all the sudden reject it, there is definitely something not right.
The lowest weight I got to was 93 ilbs.
I weigh 98 now.
In the end
these things matter most:
How well did you love?
How fully did you live?
How deeply did you let go?
(Source: scottzzie, via isolated-hearts)
Hello everyone
Just wanted to say that I hope you all are doing well
I’m currently in my last semester of college, so I haven’t had time to invest in writing here
Besides.. everything has been fairly good here lately.. I’m also attempting to get that short film started..
I need these.
I don’t love you pills. I am happy pills. I’m unbreakable pills. I’m over you pills. I’m not lonely pills.
Pills to make it all go away.
(Source: starvationandpills)
Book recommendation
The greatest book I ever read on depression was:
‘Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness’ by William Styron
I bought it last year after it was on a list that my psychiatrist gave me of book recommendations
Another one that I’m currently considering buying is ‘I Hate You - Don’t Leave Me: Understanding the Borderline Personality’.. but I probably will go to my local bookstore to see if it’s there before buying it online.
It may seem weird that someone whom has ‘mental illnesses’ would read books about them, but it brings a sense of validation.. you don’t feel as much of an outsider for the fact a book was published bringing to light that you’re not alone.
I was curious as to if any of you have read good books regarding mental health?
